My Angel

Dear Gabriel,

You keep me breathing, keep me pushing forward. You will never know just how much I appreciate you in my life, for you give me life, eternal life. It does not matter if I die, for my soul remains on this earth,to walk amongst the living, for I will always have unfinished business to attend to.Nothing can compare to the love you give, to the pain you remove, you take away the bad and replace it with the good. You said it can only get better, because I have you, well, I finally believe it. Thank you so much for being there for me,I wish you were still here.

Love, Debbie xoxo

02/07/2010

It's been a long week, I'm so glad that I finally have the chance to write! I've been having strange dreams, I'm pretty sure it's the stress from it being the one year anniversary of Gabriel's death in two weeks. I'm not looking forward to it at all, I don't like thinking about it, it hurts. Not surprising my counsellor tells me, "You're on your way to recovery, of course the anniversary of his death is a major trigger point for you." Yeah, like I didn't know that all ready, she thinks she knows me, she doesn't. I've had her for two weeks, all the other women that have counselled me have left, been swapped for others. Every time I get the chance to really open up to them they leave me hanging, hanging by a thread. The thread never breaks though, because of Gabriel. He keeps me going.

Debbie